sad.

hey, 0011. 2019, Feb 5.

atm, imma story abt the most heartbreaking moment in my life.

well, my azam fr this year is no more sedih sedih broken & everything but januari je dah banyak benda sedih berlaku dalam hidup aku. well, i thought january is a trial month of 2019. but yeah, its february & i still am laying on my toto & crying.

have you ever feel betrayed by your own friend? eventho it has been "sebati" in my life, being stepped frm the bck by my own friend, but today i felt extra hurt.

why? well, the person i thought wont keluar frm the team is actually including you. eventho aku dah dapat agak dari awal, but aku percaya kat kau. aku percaya yang kau takkan keluar walau cemana teruk pun team kita ni. but yeah, sebab aku percaya kat kau, sakit sangat bila kau kata kau nak keluar...

aku tahu, hak masing masing untuk belajar, untuk improve, untuk terus maju kehadapan. but... i just cant accept it... its not the "team" who made us look hebat or great in court. its ourself who will prove to everyone. we dont need a great team to make us looks good, we need to improve ourself ALONE. train more, get more duh.

idk lah what to say. im sad but at the same time, aku geram. dont talk abt improvement lah if you dont even come to training frequently. zzzzz. nvm WE WILL show to the WORLD. who the fk is StormV. we r not Venoms. Venoms dead alrdy. wait & see people! ciao.

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