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well, we all know the best stories comes frm the sadness that we're currently face right. i guess im rly sad rn. thats the only reason why im so rajin to blogging lately :') kalau tweet orang stalk. jaranglah orang baca blog haha. okay, what exactly im gonna share today? idk. it is just smtg that come to my mind all the times.

am i not important to anyone?
am i never be anyone's favorite?
am i really nothing to everyone?

i ask this every single day & it makes me feel more sad when they show me the way i think is actually real.

its not really about mens. most of the time, i shall say here, about friends. everyone know im really into friendship. even if i get into relationship pun, i will care more abt my friends more than my man. everyone knows that...

it hurts though, when we dont get the same energy that we've given. when we dont get the same attention that we give. when we dont get the same love & same appreciation like how we show...

i didnt give all my love to be appreciated but.... im still am a human :')

i told myself to care less, but this is me, full of love. i cant unlove people. i cant change the way i am. i cant. bcs the way i treat ppl is really the way i want others to treat me. but ofc, nobody is just as great like ourself right haha so im just, follow the flows. maybe i wont be able to feel happiness. or maybe, just fr awhile. maybe. haha. i dont deserve it maybe? 

some people just dont feel the same thing as we did. i learnt it in the hard way.

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