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heyyy, its 16th April 2019, 0141.

today imma tell some stories abt my life.
well, my sadlife ofc. yeah, it has been a while since i last writing on this blog. just wanna share to you guys, my life is really in a mess right now. & why is that? bcs, i just feel bad abt everyone. i just felt like everyone secretly hated me behind my bck. why i feel that way? well, bcs my instincts said so :'). first thing first, i rly wanna congrats myself fr having some scores on the prev game. tbh, i am proud but at the same time, i feel bad. why? bcs my friends hate that (: i jst wanna have some confidence on my shooting skills. eventho all of my goals are rubbish & not rly how floorball goal shld be. but.... hm nvm, im still the greedy one. wanna score all the time (((((: ok, good one. thanks. can tarik balik all the goal accept the last one, that is rly the best goal i get so far. never have i scored that way. if that one also considered as greedy of me, oh well myb i shld just gantung the stick bcs of what ppl been telling me. so fucking hate this so much. as im typing this rn, pls knw that i h8 how i played till this day. feels like wanna stop playing cz i rly am tired of all the bullshits. do you guys knw that? no right? i nvr tell anyone how i felt till today. only if someone read this but no one did. no one ask. no one care. i h8 how i play. how i shoot & everything. nothing impressed me. im miserable fr understanding this fucking game. im insecure. i do. thts y i train harder but nothing improve. its sad though. but i still laugh & smile like nothing happened. im so fucking lembab nak belajar. i dont understand & im tired of trying to understand. even an easy task is such a burden to me. i rly h8 this. seriously. tbh, deep down, every single training, i am screaming inside. how i played, day by day, makes me scream louder. i have no talent at all. i feel down all the time. none of them ever asked me how i feel. & we all knw why, bcs i nvr showed :) pendam, pendam sampai mati. sorry guys. will trying my best fr next game. hopefully membantu :-). thats all. thankyou fr reading.

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