ex,or exes?

hey its 0330hrs, 11 august 2019.

ssupppp guys! as you can see the title... ya, its abt my ex. hahaha im not sure why im actually making this post but rn im..... confused. well, ive been single fr 1yr++ now. & i think i have moved on. i guess 樂. HAHAHA GUYS I LIED . i just wanna ease my own hearttttt omg i cant believe i still hasnt move on . i shall admit that i stalked my ex's gf's tweet every. single. day. hoping that they'd be breaking up. sooner or later... & idk... he said to me that they've broke up.... at the first place im dying inside fr keeping the happy me after knowing that they've broke up AND HOW HE TELL ME HIMSELF OMG WHY HE DID THAT!!!! IM STILL CURIOUS WHY WHY & WHYYYY HE DID THAT! HE TOLD ME TWICE when he broke up. WHY HE DID THAT!!!! HE DID THAT ON PURPOSE I KNEW IT!!! ok sorry fr being emotional hahaha ok guys just wanna tell you that, it has been 3days ive been dreaming abt him.... i knw its just a dream but why???? how can i move on if i kept dreaming of him everynight though.. ok, a few days ago, i prayed to god. to show me my real jodoh & i.. i pray fr me & him ffs IDFK WHY. but i also doa fr me & fs. bcs idk mayn, i love both.. . smtimes, im still hoping its me & him to be tgther at the end.. but a part of me want fs to be my "one".... bcs im confused af, i prayed fr both. idk whts going on but in the past few days, he ask me like randomly, "g brunei eh?", its public though, my bestfriends were there.... omg aku rasa aku berharap balik pls dont dllo, it hurts you!!!! that time he asked me i was like 'yup.. why' & yes im shaking thank god its dark  nbdy can see me clearly hahahahahahaha hmmmm imisshim. i miss his mom & i miss his brother 梁. idk lah maybe i think too much. maybe hes just being nice to me cz we re friend after all.. ha ha it's sucks to be "friend" after all we ve been through. haish. imma be disappointed af if he try to win my friend's heart again. pls. i.. im gonna be so damn disappointed.... in her. if she like him bck. ah fk. here's me overthinking again. I HAVE STOPPED BEING AN UNSTABLE EMOTIONAL GIRL SINCE HE GT NEW GIRL, ATLEAST IM RELIEVED THAT HE WASNT TRYING TO FLIRT W MY FRIEND! ew disgusting..... hm so conclusion is, pls find another girl or fall in love w me bck instead . but hahahaha idts i wld accpt him bck even if he likes me bck or wanna gb w me cz he has changed 蠟☹. like 100% hes not that loyal guy that i knew. he might be sweet but hes a flirter now 梁梁. why you changed that way boi.... im sad fr you . hm lastly, fr fs, if we meant to be, we will be :) it was nice texting you yesterday :( but i dont wanna show my hype side again to you, just... to not get hurts again.... goodnight!

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