hurt.

hey blog. long time no talk. sorry fr abandoning you fr quite long. heres me again. coming bck to you bcs im sad. as always. im sad. my soul is sad. but it didnt make me cry. im just sad. why? why cant i revenge to ppl. why am i too needy? why am i too easy? why cant i be ego? why cant i do what others did to me? why? why? whyyy???!!! why do i have to be sad bcs of ppl who never be sad bcs of me? why? i jst dont understand some ppl's mindset. i give everything to them. but why nobody ever appreciate wht have i done to them? why they cant see? every time, money, efforts, all the sacrifices ive done fr them.....why? does human are too dumb and blind to see? or im just not good enough to them.... how can ppl easily moved on? how can ppl easily walk away? how can ppl not affected when somebody is leaving them? how?!?!!!?? how can they having a normal life when someone is changing???!?!!?? how???!?!?!?! why? bcs they always have someone else to replace.. haha. i am replaceable... i can see that... im just an ordinary girl who did nothing but being clingy. too clingy, they said :-). im- i just cant stand lah all these mengarut reasons/points. it doesnt make sense at all! we've been living fr a long time tgther and this doesnt affect you at all bfr. suddenly you said im over-clingy. defak.... ok nvm. huh. im tired dey. iloveyou very much. and i knw you knw that. and you knw i cannot live w/o you. fuck. i fcking missed you. i knw youre happy now. i knw youre enjoying ur time alone now. w nobody by ur side. nobody disturbing you. nobody wants ur attention. ur hug. aite. im sorry. sorry fr semak in ur life. sorry fr taking care of you too much that you feel rimas. sorry fr loving you this deep. im sorry fr being me. one day i hope you realize who you rly shld keep and who you shld let go :) ppl come and go. but i will nvr leave. another toxic trait of me is i can nvr let go ppl. even if you left me w so much scars, i will always come to you when you need me. haha. i am gemini but i ll nvr forget who was with me frm the beginning, eho sacrificed fr me, who always give me ears even if theyre busy, who help me, support me in everything i do. i will always remember everyone. just so you knw, you are very important to me. in my life. thank you fr keep hurting me :)

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