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​hi. to whoever reading this or are able to reach this blog, thankyou. thankyou for coming over and read my rubbish. today, 21st january 2022, 0525, if whoever read this know me personally in life, i would like to give my full gratitude to you. thankyou for accepting me in your life and sharing your life with me eventho i got nothing to offer along our "perkenalan". i might hurt you everyday by my words or actions or even my face expression and my body language. im sorry if ive been such a bad person to you and do you wrong. not noticing every single thing ive done to you, im really sorry. im in a very dangerous state right now and im sorry if now we dont talk anymore bcs i have insider problem that need to repair everything in me. im honestly thankful to have whoever read this in my life even we've known each other for a short time or if you are the person that known me for a very long time, im still appreciating you and wish you the best in life :) i could never leave anyone but right now i need to be by myself as i need to improve myself and heal. im sorry for letting you down all the time and not be able to comfort you when you seek it from me :( please know that even if youre my past, my ex-crush, ex-friend or anything that have ever been in my circle once, ive always been loving you as i could. i dont wanna push away everyone but i need to do that for now. please be safe ya <3 im sorry again for being a disappointment to you and not providing you things i shouldve done the best for you :( sorry for not being enough :( sorry for being me :( hope youre doing well with your life eventho im not there anymore :) im happy to be a part of you once, and if the right time coming by, i would greatly do it all over again someday :) thankyou for everything :)

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