bosan.

18th of March, 2019. 0300.

hell-ooo there! im just done playing my new survival game fr 44mins fighting w zombies. lulz. so now imma writing abt my boredom life these days to you, fr anyone reading this.

yaw. ive been hearing some rumours abt me. i meant, A LOT. many. haha idk i think my life is so interesting that you guys love talking abt me so much, huh? 

PLAYGIRL.
uish lama tak dengaq perkataan ni. ingatkan lepaih dah tinggal perangai lama tadakla orang nak gelar aku begitu. rupanya manusia tak pernah nak perasan perubahan orang kan. sentiasa menghukum kisah silap. lulz. sungguh meleis. hey bro, past is past. move on lah bro. ppl changed. frm good to bad & vice versa bro. kalau kau rasa aku ni sama je macam masa kita bercinta dulu meh try kapel balik ngn aku tgok sama ka tak sama . kau je tak berubah. sampah sampai mampos. aku dah lama berubah. oh maklomla makin tua. kau otak makin muda yedak? tukaq awek macam tukaq baju tadak sapa nak habaq hang tu playboy yedak? just sebab aku single lama ja kau nak ckap aku playgirl duk keluar ngn laki sana sini eh? hahaha nak explain kat kau pun tara guna tapi takpa, aku cite jugakla. kot2 laa kan nak tau. bolehla gossip ngn geng munyet kamu. oops 來. begini ya, haters haters tu sekalian. aku ni single dari july 2018 ye. paling last sekali ex aku namanya Fazsampah itu ya. eh Fazriel namanya. my bad. in case kalau nak tahu, no any serious/couple relationship happened after this guy ya. kalau ada pun just bestfriend relationship dan bro relationship. other than that is a no no.

yes, i admit, im texting some guy. who likes me. oh texting time single takleh ea? balas text 10jam sekali takleh ea? okok klau takleh takpa, aku tak batak pun nak text sesapa. tak batakla nak kapel2 bagai ni. pls ah. pls jangan nak rasa diri tu betul sangat bila tegakkan benang yang basah. macam kau duk habaq kat semorang aku ni try budak tu budak ni haha check balik sape try sape k? . oh btw, kalau takde terung, sila jangan jadi lelaki ye. klau pengecut, boleh dah slow slow kumpul duit pegi thai buat surgery transgender k? cerita belakang belakang, bila tanya direct nak lari lari bagai lak. alahai. macam takde life. sedih aku tengok ko ni ekkk. ni nak pesan, ckap kat member, klau suka ckap suka. kalau tak suka takyah nak cari point utk lagi tambah tak suka. lels. mcm desperate sangat nak orang benci aku. dapat apa tah? sian tol idop. takpela, orang kaya memang sempit fikiran. duit je banyak, otak kempis. kah. semoga matangla ye kawan kawan. aku malas nak ckap bnyak. kalau rasa diri tu bagus, betul benda ko ckap, tuduh bagai tu, semoga teruskanlah mencari silap orang sampai tersuka. eh. terflirt pula 來. klau dah salah, minta maaf lah ye sebelom kiamat. aku tunggu je ☺.

2019 masih otak sempit. manjang nak judge orang sana sini. sorryla miskin tak macam korang keluarga have-have. aku nak makan pun kena pi kerja. cari duit sendiri. kau mintak apa apa pun dapat . yelah rezeki masing masing. tapi Allah bagi otak semua sama rata. fx lah sikit. biaq tadak duit jangan tadak akai na? buang masa ja hidup. baik bagi kat kucing akai hang tu. adoi kesian betul. dahla, explain pun tara guna, kau tetap dengan kata kata kau. maklomla, malu kan nak ngaku salah sendiri. rasa berdosa gitew kan. kahhh. neway, semoga dapatlah orang yang boleh faham kau. tu pon kalau jumpa. kahkah. ciaooooo

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