appreciation post!

halu.

0733, 16 April 2020 bersamaan day-2 fasa 3: MCO. apa jadahnya MCO ni? Movement Control Order. sempena Covid-19 outbreak. ye kami disini mereput di uniten hahahaha ok em kalini nak ucap terima kasih kat felo murni, orang orang yang sponsor makanan utk kami, kawan kawan yang belanja makan minum, kawan kawan yang jaga satu sama lain sepanjang MCO ni, and kawan kawan yang bagi aku semangat utk terus hidup. terima kasih kawan kawan ‍♀️‍♀️‍♀️❤❤❤❤

sepanjang quarantine ni macam macam aku alami. murung, happy, nangis, gelak tak ingat dunia, most important thing is me trying to find myself back and see my friend's real side. how they act and everything haha this post is an appreciation post because yang sedih2 dah letak kat post lepas2 haha so here im stating my true appreciation to everyone around me that give me reasons to stay strong 

first and foremost, ofc my bestfriend, my bestboo.
she helps me way too much eventho smtimes dia takde sebab dia asyik duduk dalam bilik je but when im having my very very bad mental breakdown she was there. shes always there. thankyou . she noticed everything. every little things!! how can i not love her. im very lucky to call her my bestfriend bcs i aint gt another her in anyone else in this world. iloveher to death and till jannah 梁殺. sepanjang quarantine ni 2x aku mental breakdown and i terus find her bcs i knw i cnt handle this on my own bcs i rly cant live alone. i need my bestfriends to help me keep me sane along my studies and in my life. thank god fr letting me having this girl. i appreciate everything you did fr me  im truly thankful and blessed to have you bestboo 蠟蠟. you rly help me a lot. your words, your presense and everything. i just hope we stay friends eventho we jauh nanti bcs i dont wanna lose you 

second one is my besthun. another bestfriend of mine ((my bestfriend, idc if she think im not hers haha)). well she helps me a lot too. she gave me comfort when i need to chill down. she gave me hug when i need it the most. she knws my mental health. thankyou fr noticing my bad mental health. thankyou fr taking care of my mental health as i did that to you eventho i aint helpful . thankyou fr being there fr me, even smtimes i think im over-reacting everything. sorry fr being me. iloveyou too till death and till jannah bcs i dont wanna see you destroy yourself so i keep advising you that sometimes i said too much that makes you hurt and tired with me. just so you knw i will never be tired with you bcs i dont wanna live without you  thankyou fr helping me out during quarantine and my entire life, i appreciate it a lot. you mean a lot to me 

third one, this one friend of mine that i can call my close friend, but not my bestfriend. huhu sorry. i dont usually tell ppl my secrets and my side to everyone. im showing my other side to my bestfriends only cz i trust them. but this girl is smtg. i smtimes tell her what i feel bcs she is a good listener. i dont trust ppl but shes one of the person that i trust.... sikit huhu. thankyou fr lending ur ears to me when i really had nobody. when i need someone to talk then there you are, im really thankful that you can see the changes in me. the way i act, the way im not being myself. thankyou fr noticing that! i love when ppl notice little things... i appreciate that very much! 梁殺 thankyou!! ❤❤❤❤

fourth, i wanna thank my parents, my siblings, my fam, my friends yang takde around me yang keep in touch with me, during this quarantine, this people also help keep me sane sebab tanpa dorang siapalah saya disini, esp my family  just seeing them frm afar already kuatkan mental aku and makes me calm and be stronggg ❣❣❣❣ imma fight this fr them!!! i wanna see them i wanna meet and hugs them so muchhhh  i miss everyoneeeeee i hope this MCO will end soon cz i reallyyy miss every each of themmmm 蠟蠟蠟蠟蠟蠟

this post was created just to let them know that i appreciate them in my life and i wanna have a better life with them fr the rest of my life. i cldnt ask more bcs theyre enough fr me ❤❤❤ stay safe stay home guys. iloveyou.

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