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hey haha tahla taktaula nak rasa apa. this is. so. fucking hurt. as. hell. maybe im just not a good person to be called bestfriend by you or by whoever lah. why im so fcking desperately want to become ur bestfriend anyway? fuck. we spent more time talking abt our feelings, emotions, secrets, like. no one. knows you like me. or maybe... you regret telling me things..... haha em sorry. im not worthy. im... fuck, im so fcking sad plus marah and kecewa as fuck. i dont fcking deserve to be treated like this. god. fuck fuck fuck!!!! i feel useless asfuck rn. i feel like. im nobody. i rly cnt brain. fuck. this is so fcking hurt. WHY THE FUCK PEOPLE CANT SEE THE GOOD IN THE BAD SITUATION IN SOMEONE?! I CAN STILL FUCKING LOVEYOU AND CARE FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU BUAT PALAT SEPALAT PALAT MANA PUN, I WILL STILL SEE THE GOOD IN YOU AND HELPED YOU ALL I CAN. bcs sejahat2 manusia, still ada benda kebaikan yang dia buat kat aku yang aku pegang smpai mati. i nvr regret fr telling you things ive nvr tell anyone but im rly hurt and kecewa bcs i trusted you so much. i trusted and attached to you and i told you things ive nvr tell anyone bcs im way too comfortable with you, that makes me fcked up and end up you stabbed me at my back like this. woah. daym. ok im too emotional, thats y. it turned you off. i get it. but. ah fuckla, sumpah takleh brain sial. why?! i mean. apa silapnya aku... apa salah aku... apa kekurangan aku? why im never be enough... this is fcking hurt. ya allah... sakit ya rabb....

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