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hi guys, though nobody is here, reading my nonsense story, but i ll blogging anyway hehe. senanye taktaula nak tulis apa huhu but feels like typing and blogging so yeah here it is. another rubbish post from me xP okayla first of all, i just bought a wireless keyboard yay! lol just another excessive shopping habit for nothing T.T actually my bro bought it and it looked very tempted to me T.T so i asked himla how much he bought bcs that is the same brand from what ive added to cart in shopee lol then he said he bought cheaper than mine in the cart, which is idek how he can get cheaper but sokay,, i played with it for a while lah then he suddenly said he want to buy another one, bigger one bcs this one is a bit small and cute uwu :3 hahaha so he said, "you wanna buy it from me or not, i ll sell to mummy if you dont want" actually i know its really unnecessary for me bcs i aint working YET, so macam no use en and i diam jela, know know he bought another one esoknya. i was kinda surprised sebab i didnt decide yet T.T tapi sebab kesian and sebersalah plus nak gak benda ni HAHA so i said i buy it laa from him. then tadaa, heres the keyboard. tapi keyboard ni macam tak sedap sangatla sebab it kinda hard to type a bit sebab dia cam tahla taktau nak desc cane tapi susahla plus banyak typo siot but sokayla i accept jela. tapi aku taknak beli lagi do for now T_____________________T tapi haih penatla jadi undecisive!!!!!!! aku adala duit tapi hurm hurm hurmmm dahla duit aku habis bape rat duk tengok live bundle kat tiktok sajurrr T.T tengokla bape banyak emoji nangis aku bagi sebab memang mengsadla cite dia,,,,,,, aku nak save money tapi asyik overspent je T_________________________________T mengpenattttttt T.T aku dahla tak keje lagi, taktaula en sampai bila nak tanam anggur tapi takutla pulek nak g keje biasa sebab kang bagi hope puler kat outlet tu T.T aku dhla tak suka bagi hope kat orang woi aku taklehla,,,, serious aku tak suka jadi disappointment orang aghang T.T nanti kalau tetiba dapat keje office kesian kat keje biasa ni nak kena cari replacement aku pulak arghhh tak sukala susahkan orang T.T haiyaaa, how leh? what should i do haaaa ke nak apply keje office je tapi tapi tapi aaaaaaa nak duittttt nak shopping. oh btw, akhir bulan ada bundle expo kat mines, since tarcup pun dah postponed, so yea,, harapnye nak g bundle expo tu tapi takde member siot..... mana ada kawan aku yang layan bundle :')))))))))))))))))))) nak ajak cousin aku tapi duk lain lain tempat bosan betowl ye ishhh lagipun start bulan 3 my mom dah tak jaga my atuk anymore so no more fam gathering with le cousin everyweek :(((((((((((( mengsad :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( tetiba clingy lak en padahal selalu tak pergi pun lepak dengan depa HAHAHAHAHA k saja nak mengsad sebab yela atleast sebulan sekali leh jumpa ni dah takde takpekla jumpa huhuks plus aku dah taklehla nak bebas sebab parents aku dah duk sekali balik :')))))))))))))))))) strict parents mode balikla hurmzz :'))))))))))))))) takpela, hopefully mental aku orait jela, aku pun takde kawan gak nak ajak merayap so yeah takpela duk jela umah ontok ontok huhuks kla gais dah taktau nak borak pe ah panjang dah ni ngase HAHA bape banyak topic dah aku bukak, almost semua dah aku summarize kat sini HAHAHAHA so yeah basically sekarang saya sangatla loner ye, and introvert af, duk umah layan the sims je :') kalau korang bosan bosan mehla borak bersama saya in shaa allah saya layan kalau mampu yer HAHA k gais muah ciked bhoi <3

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