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Hi, salam 17th March 2022. 

Today is my bestfriend's convocation day. Yesterday should be mine but i cant attend the convo due to.... financial problem hshshsh. Tbh, thats not exactly why i didnt attend my convo. Honestly i feel like i dont wanna attend it bcs it isnt special pun. Beza from my dip convo was just the attire..... i feel like its so not worth it to bayar 255myr for the same ceremony, place, with addition of different day from my close friends. The vibe is so... meh. Boring and sad. i dont think convocation this time is worth my money eventho i graduated with First Class Honours. Macam takde beza je i grad first class ke upper class ke, no appreciation at all. Kalau ye pun bagilah duit sikit T.T Tapi takpela since degree aku pon 80k ytn tolong bayar HAHAHA. Alhamdulillah syukurrrrr. Anyway, yesterday should be my convo day, but i come to the convo to see my friends and that was... awkward but okay. Hahahaha. Yesterday was my convo day andddd yesterday also was my first day started my Protege at MYTV Broadcasting as an IT Infrastructure. I was hoping to start off my career with cybersec but nvm, for now this is my rezqi. Hurrayy! After 7months of my unemployment haha lol funny bcs though i graduated as a first class hons pun, i was being unemployed for that long lels. Sokayla, rezeki masing masing, plus mental pun tak berapa nak orait lastyear so yeah,, semua ada hikmahnya <33. So far for these 2days, takde any job pun given to me and my other colleague. Macam intern jak. Pura pura busy haha. Oh, my company provide me a laptop,, a notebook to be exact. Huawei notebook. Nipis, nice, macam macbook pro sikit. Dapat pape laptop pun aku bersyukur je. Hihi. Thank you Allah and thank you semua yang mendoakan, semoga semua dipermudahkan segala urusan dan dilimpahkan rezeki halal yang melimpah ruah aamiinnnn <333

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