sahabat.

hey.

haha hilang kawan or hilang boifren mana lagi pedih? kalau tanya aku memang jawapan aku hilang kawan. why? eh no, actually hilang sahabat. kau hilang kawan takdehal. hilang kenalan takdehal. kalau takat member buat huha huha meriah sana sini tapi benda kecik kau buat muka pun orang tak faham takdehal semua tu. tapi once kau hilang sahabat kau hilang semuanya. kau hilang orang yang selalu ada utk kau. kau hilang orang yang selalu bagi nasihat kat kau. kau hilang orang yang boleh maki maki kau carut kat depan muka pastu sambung carut balik gaduh bertumbuk ke perli sarkastik ke last last baik balik haha kau hilang sahabat, kau hilang orang yang bagi kau makan bila kau takde duit. kau hilang orang yang bagi kau bahu bagi kau badan bila kau sedih, nangis. kau hilang orang yang support kau dari bawah. dari kau takde pape sampai kau ada segalanya. kau hilang orang yang tolong kau ikhlas tak mintak balasan pun. kau hilang orang yang sayang kau and jaga kau. kau hilang orang yang marah kau macam mak, kakak, kat rumah, walaupun annoying kau tetap akan rindu benda tu :'). kau hilang orang yang notice every little things perubahan dkt kau. kau hilang manusia yang tak pernah berkira dengan kau. kau hilang orang yang remind kau pasal agama. kau hilang semua tu. kau hilang separuh hidup kau. sebab sahabat sejati bukan nak tengok kau bahagia je, sahabat sejati nak kau bahagia dunia akhirat.

kau hilang boifren kau boleh cari lain. yang patah tumbuh yang hilang berganti. sahabat tiada pengganti. kawan boleh cari. tapi bukan sahabat :)

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